Sometimes when I am not feeling well (all of the time when I am not feeling well) I lose myself. I forget that my life is not about illness. I forget that I am not only illness.
If I am honest, I also know that illness, no matter how much I loathe it, is also some kind of safe place. I know it well. I know my role as an ill person. I forget that I know other things too and that reaching for something different during the most difficult times is not impossible. I know because I've done it.
PMDD is HARD. It can push one down again and again. But it is during the worst of it that it is so important to reach for something else. A tiny, tiny piece of hope is HUGE in the middle of PMDD symptoms. It may look like nothing when well, but it might just get us through the day when we aren't. So this post is meant to encourage you to REACH for whatever hope (or anything else that is helpful) you can on a really bad day. Even if others without PMDD don't understand how difficult that may be for you, how much effort it takes to try, I do. Tell me about reaching if you like. I'd love to listen.
